Sunday, 28 February 2010

Dead music heros..interesting facts you may not want to know

We all have heroes people we look up to and aspire to be like etc... only trouble is we put them on pedistals but at the end of the day they're only human like us with flaws... they're just ordinary people with a talent and an exciting glamorous day job and the music industry is one of the most surreal corrupting there is. I have a few heroes amongst those below.......

JOHN LENNON....John was from a broken home his father was a wayward merchant seaman and spent most of his time away at sea and seemed to care little of his family. His mother suffered from depression and illness unable to cope with bringing up an unwanted child so dumped him onto his aunty. He grew up to be a cheeky arrogant youth with not much regard for women. became a teddy boy joined a skiffle group and signed up for art college as it was an easier option to work. later found fame with the Beatles who took the world by storm. in later years got heavily into drugs art social causes and wanted to be a working class hero almost embarrassed by his wealth. he financially supported many anti-establishment youth movements and was manipulated by many. he fell hopelessly in love with an older avante garde artist Yoko Ono who dominated his life and many argue helped to destroy the band. She became like a mother figure to him maybe making up for the loss of a relationship as a child with his own mother. she took over his entire life and business/music dealings while he retired to be a passive house husband. he died at the hands of a crazed fan who read subliminal messages in his song lyrics and waited for him outside his New york apartment in 1980 firstly asking john to sign his album cover and later in the evening shooting him dead in the back. he said god told him he must kill john lennon..john was 40 yrs old.

KURT COBAIN [nirvana] Kurt grew up in a working class family and was unremarkable at school. as a youth he drifted from one dead end job to another. he was musical and got involved in the local live band scene playing in various bands. he later found fame with his band Nirvana who re-invented rock with a mix of old rock/punk named grunge and they stormed the world turning a whole new generation onto rock music. he fell into enjoying the fruits of stardom with drugs women toys but quickly became disillusioned with the whole music business and the vacuum he found himself in. he withdrew into deep depressive bouts and cut himself off for weeks. he died from his own hand alone having shot himself with a shotgun blowing most of his face/head away. it was reported weeks before he had attempted suicide but failed.

MICHAEL HUTCHENCE [Inxs] Macho frontman with this Aussie band grew up in Australia with a normal family life. getting into music during his teens with various local bands playing bars for years before hitting it big time with Inxs. He liked the rock star lifestyle with its wild side and women/toys and of course drugs. he was quite a ladies man. Michael had a liking for danger and crossing lines..pushing limits and this spilled over in his social activities and sex life. In the bdsm/fetish circles the activity of Asphyxiaphilian or breath play is well known where limiting ones breath just beyond safe limits at the moment of orgasm increases the sensation. this is practiced more widely than believed both with a partner and alone with many discreet recorded deaths each year. [recently 'Kill Bill' actor David Carridine died from the same method] michael died alone in his hotel room hanging from a rope from a hook on his door. he had been practicing breath play alone while masturbating but it went horribly wrong. the press tried unsuccessfully to cover up his cause of death which was accidental.


ELVIS PRESLEY...Small town country boy who epitimised the image of a deeply religious mummys boy. when they go off the rails they are bad. Enjoyed drugs and junk food. enjoyed using his female fans in drunken orgies with his infamous body guards the Memphes Mafia. He admired old crooners like Frank Sinatra and Perry Como but disliked the new wave pop stars like the Beatles/Stones etc died on his toilet drunk/drugged up causeing him to vomit...was found in a pool of vomit with his trousers around his ankles.


BRIAN JONES [Rolling Stones] Brian was brought up in a conventional middle class household. an asthmatic and sensitive loner who girls liked and he made one pregnant while at school. In fame his sensitivity caused him problems and he turned to drink/drugs. liked perverse sex and he was a woman beater. its well documented how he beat up his girl friends and his enjoyment of being cruel in humor. He drowned or was murdered by his builder friend at his country home in the early hours while drugged up and drunk swimming in his pool. Earlier in the evening he suffered cramp while swimming and an asthma attack.


JIM MORRISON [The Doors] Jim was brought up in a military household in a very conventional way. An intelligent guy who loved verse and poetry. In fame he was a talented singer/song writer but with little self discipline sinking into the hardcore aspects of the rockstars lifestle. He ended up disillusioned and reckless. a smackhead who lived for the next fix. Died of an overdose of Heroin in his bath in Paris while his than girl friend lay in the next room also high on heroin.


COZY POWELL [session drummer with many famous rock bands including Rainbow etc] Cozy was a great drummer and a fun guy liked by all the bands he played in. Loved the toys that the lifestyle afforded him unfortunately one of them was to kill him. Died while driving with one hand his sports car on the M4 motorway in England while doing 95 mph and on his mobile phone to his wife...he was reportedly saying in a jokey way to his wife that he was doing 95 mph in 3rd gear overtaking and needed to get off the phone to change gear when...a tire burst causing him to career off the motorway crashing into fields killing him. they found him dead in the wreak of his car.



JIMI HENDRIX. Talented rock god who changed rock music in the late sixties. Ex GI in the American army and served in Vietnam. was very right wing and believed in the war and crushing communist rule so was against the youth movement of the time opposing the war. Played as a session guitarist in his home country without success and became famous in the uk. ended up a Smackhead and drunk. Died of a heroin overdose and vomiting.



SID VICIOUS [ Sex Pistols] immature type who Drifted into fame thanks to being in the right place at the right time. Hardly talented but fitted the image of the times when punk exploded onto the scene in 1976. enjoyed drunken drug sex binges and was proud to be a yob. Was a woman beater. Died by his own hand of a Heroin overdose while on remand in an American Prison awaiting trial for beating up and stabbing to death his American girl friend Nancy Spurgen in a hotel room.



JOHN BONHAN [Led Zeppelin] Renowned drummer and hellraiser. came from humble working class background in the midlands UK he liked to party and have fun. he was a mans man and liked being with the guys. had a shy nature when sober. Was an alcoholic and didnt know when to stop. Died on his own vomit while in a drunken stupor.



JOHN ENTWHISTLE [ The Who] founding member of this famous group. Genuinely nice quiet man who broke new ground with his unigue bass playing style. Liked living the high life but was irresponsible with money and women. Died in a motel room in the early hours while on a Who mini come back tour while high on cocaine/alcohol and having sex with several female hookers. he was 59.



KEITH MOON [ The Who] Life and soul drummer of the band who you couldnt miss. he was mr rock'n'roll with a zany persona. He set the measure for future rock madness with things like drunken/drugged parties/orgies..shooting up his house with a shotgun--trashing hotel rooms..driving cars into swimming pools etc he was an alcoholic/drug addict and a manic depressive and was certified as insane by one psychiatrist. He died of an accidental overdose of prescribed pills.

Other music stars deaths...

DENNIS WILSON [Beach boys] died while drunk and swimming by drowning. 39yrs
JERRY GARCIA [Grateful dead] he was diabetic and died of a heart attack while withdrawing from a heroin fix. 53 yrs
BON SCOTT [ac/dc] had an alcohol binge which killed him. 33 yrs
KEITH SELF [Yardbirds] was electricuted playing electric guitar while having a bath. 33 yrs
JANIS JOPLIN died of an heroin overdose combined with alcoholic hepititus. 27 yrs.
GRAM PARSONS [ the byrds] Its believed he died from a heart attack due to alcohol abuse. 50 yrs
MARVIN GAYE. Shot dead by his father during an argument. 45 yrs
OTIS REDDING. died in a plane crash.
KAREN CARPENTER. heart failure.
PETER HAM and TOM EVENS [badfinger] Both committed suicide by hanging at different times.
MARC BOLEN [T-rex] Died while a passenger in a mini car driven by his girlfriend who hit a tree and he was decapitated..
STEVE MARRIOT [small faces] after a night out drinking returned home and fell asleep smoking in bed which set the cottage on fire killing him.
FELIX PAPPALARDI [ mountain] band member and music producer of Cream was shot dead in the neck by his wife. 44 yrs


A few who should be dead because of their lifestyle and drug abuse......

KEEF RICHARDS [Rolling stones] Keef has past into legend for his abuses and life style. he epitimises the legend that is the rolling stones and the rock star life.

OZZY OSBOURNE [black Sabbath] Ozzy is the jokey cartoon character of rock. a lovable rogue with an addictive personality and not a clue when to stop.

STEVE TYLER [Aerosmith] drugs caused him to sink to the gutter literally its a wonder he came back.




I could list many more but this gives an indication of the dangers of musical fame CALLEN



PS. words of wisdom......Never trust someone with a perfect reputation.....they are inexperienced in life!

Tuesday, 23 February 2010

Media hypocrisy........Tiger Woods

I sat watching the tv news here in the UK the other evening and the news reader announced there was a special worldwide public address being broadcast later from Tiger Woods!...What!? I expected it to be some important announcement from the current 'surge' in Afghanistan..or about the recent assassination of the Hamas leader in Dubia..or about the recovering economy..or the charity relief efforts for the poor people of Haiti etc etc but no its so more important that it gets worldwide precedence and I hear in America they even interrupted tv programmes to show it. oh I sat on the edge of my seat waiting to hear something important and I'm faced with an idiot celeb golfer apologising for cheating on his wife!


Ok I am aware of world famous golfer and good morality icon Tiger Woods. I'm not a fan of golf in any of its forms for to me its the equivilent of watching paint dry. I do respect that its a sport enjoyed by millions and gives viewing pleasure. I hear Tigers pretty good at it too. But the cynical side of me views Tiger as just another overpaid sports personality living in a different world financially to ordinary 'real' folk like my good self. someone told me his worth over $100 million etc if thats true then to me thats a little immoral having so much when most struggle to pay bills..or put it another way soldiers who fight in wars risking their lives are paid a pittance in comparison anyhow...



so..this great worldwide announcement turns out to be a staged sincere apoligy for having affairs behind his wifes back huh. but isnt that what celebs do? of course I dont condone adultery anywhere because it undermines the stability of family life and society in general. every relationship has a foundation of trust..its the glue that keeps it together and we all desire a union based on trust dont we. sadly in the real world we are human and we have flaws so adultery does indeed happen across the globe but society has a duty to uphold morals and condem it..when a role model and goodguy iconic celeb like Tiger breaks those rules of marital trust he deserves to be publicly torn apart as an example to us ordinary mortals. it sort of sets a ceiling dosent it of what behavior is acceptable in public life..of what we look up to and admire in a public figure. Behind the scenes in his family it must have caused deep upset so a public apoligy like this caters to all parties and satisfies the lust for humiliation and revenge that some feel about cheating.


But....it strikes me theres hypocrisy going on here. The press/media are having a field day condemming this serial cheater and in another age would be stoning him to death but..theres hardly any mention of the women involved in this whole thing? ok they've come forward in droves to tell their stories for financial reward and they happily join in Tigers public condemnation. some sit in front of the tv cameras feigning that they were led astray and conned also thinking Tiger was in love with them and wanted to leave his wife etc etc while others didnt seem to care and knew cheating was a two-way affair. did these women stop to think this guys married and if found out it would devastate this guys wife and kids? that by jumping into bed with him they could wreak a marriage? I suspect many were gold diggers or thrill seekers who didnt care. they saw the bright lights of 'Fame' and the 'Dollar' signs flashing before their eyes and cared little for his families feelings or the trouble they might cause if found out. Lets place equal blame on all those involved here including the women who have displayed equal bad behaviour. many would call them Trailer Trash types which I think is a little unfair but they should not be lauded in the media either. To me such women are a disgrace also.



I dislike the whole celeb addiction thing going on today and the tacky drug induced lifestyles going behind the bright lights. To me these celebs are not heroes or types I want to adhere to in any way. they are just ordinary folk that have a particular talent and a glamorous day job little else. in real life certain women are going to be sexually attracted to such types because of their lifestyles and power. it should no surprise that young virile wealthy famous males like Tiger are going to be seduced by the glitch money drugs etc and beautiful women offering themselves sexually on a plate on a daily basis. Temptation creeps up on you and weakens your resolve plus many men are led by their dicks etc etc any women who dates/marrys a celeb should bare these things in mind. This may sound like I'm defending tigers behaviour but I'm not..I'm just stating reality. Lets give cheating Tiger room to prove he regrets cheating after his media apology....but lets not forget the shameful behavior of the devious women either! CALLEN










Words of wisdom........" Religion is the imprisonment of the mind"

Tuesday, 16 February 2010

If only you had taken the time.....

You might have loved me had you known me
if you had ever known my mind. if you
would have walked through my dreams + memories
who knows what treasures you might have found
yes..you might have loved me if you had known me
if you had only taken the time!



but you were just too busy doing your thing
busy chores + opening closed doors fed your day
you should have been aware + paused a while
listened carefully + caught the passing whispers in the wind
cherished thoughts were left unopened like flowers
passing by in a gently flowing stream of unrealised dreams



But in lifes autumn time there should be few regrets
of adventures wished for but never met for
some dreams were never meant to be real
they were merely there to entertain our thoughts
yearned for passions fire the soul tis true
could have been realised if you had only taken
the time to know my mind + discover what was hidden
you might have loved me...if only you had taken the time!







PS. Words of wisdom......." When you have expectations of people...you will be disappointed "

Wednesday, 10 February 2010

Dreams in a tin-can

Its strange sitting in the very thing that epitmises freedom for many sometimes causes you to be trapped and dreaming of real freedom. I found myself in that position today. crawling along at walking pace on the treadmill of life in a traffic jam from hell. roasting in the mid day sun in a tin can that is a car..my mind wandering to other dreams also in the mid day sun.



An irony I had 'Rage against the Machine' playing on my hi-fi and it caused me to impulsively steer my mobile prison into a layby. I just walked away from it through a hedge into an ajoining field leaving the petrol fumes and noise behind. walking light headed I came upon a flowing stream and sat for a while beside it. you suddenly become aware of birdsong and jumping grass hoppers..a cool breeze blowing through the fluttering leaves of a nearby tree. two larks flying above in play resembling a WW2 dogfight. The trickle of water flowing in the stream over pebbles. This wasnt intrusive noise it was real life and calming



We need to get away from the mechanised hustle and bustle of modern life. like rats on a treadmill. stressed out and driven most of the time. gadgets clutter our lives and dont really make us happy maybe it will be a good thing to ditch the car and return to a calmer time of horses country life and close communities? Do you find yourself dreaming in a tin can? or maybe a beer can? Rebel against the machine for it surely rules our lives now and we are slaves to its madness.




next time your stuck in a traffic jam just take some time out and feel what I did just the other side of the hedge theres another world. Follow your natural instincts and re-discover the simple wholesome things of life that truely touch our senses..sometimes in this stress driven world where performance figures are king we can so easily lose touch with natural rhythms yet they are within easy reach of us all! CALLEN






PS. Words of wisdom....." To think of others before yourself..is truely the sign of a good person "

Fashion is part conspracy

Oh dont you just sicken at the way the media and fashion industry try to brainwash us into doing their will. Those with a brain know that the fashion industry is a con and a conspiracy..its only purpose is to sell sell sell and make money..to dig into our psychi and manipulate our insecurities/phobias etc they've got it down to a fine art these days.



No I'm not naive or an old fashioned spoilsport..I know the pluses in dressing nicely and looking good..in wanting to attract the opporsite sex and wanting to feel good about yourself etc etc but to be patronised by an industry who treat everyone as ignorent and dictate what you 'must' wear to be cool or accepted by your peers is an insult....they have a lot to be responsable for in brainwashing young girls and causeing them deep phobias..I mean 'size zero' what was all that about!? to promote a fashion statement that underfed skelital bodies are good shows clearly how sick and corrupt the industry really is. all those young innocent girls of 7-13 who picked up on this and now suffer bulmenia. eating dis-orders and self body hatred..self harm etc etc thats the hidden side of the fashion industry.




The Fashion industry which is designed as a money making machine and not to free..enhance..make beautiful the people has now crossed over into body fashion which is a bit scarey to those in the know ie Tattoos have been promoted as 'cool' to mainstream females the past 10 yrs where as before they were limited to male servicemen/bikers/criminals or female performance artists or biker/rockchiks etc but now every chav type female dosent feel fashion conscious without the obligatory ink marking on her smooth skin. its become almost like a mark of acceptence to her peers. add to this white womens obsession with burning their skin by sunburn or tanning shops wanting to resemble negro. happily ignorent to the fact its dangerous to causeing healthy skin cells to turn cancerous and speeds up the skins ageing process.




The lastest body fashion accessery is highly poisonous and toxic yet females are quite happy to waive the risks and inject it into their bodys ie Botox. a chemical that paralyses nerves and reducing the crease or wrinkle effect on the skin. not enough research has been done on helpless animals to date to determine the long term effects of having this injected into your body but..do women care? not at all as long as they look younger. than the Fashion industry brainwashes women into having plastic bags filled with liquid solutions into their chests to increase breast size and altering natural body shape. a godsend? it seems so. in my view its another form of slavery in that women are pondering to mens sexual demands. The list grows ie face lifts..bum liftys..liposuction..vaginal reshaping etc etc its become a multi-billion dollar industry created by the Fashion industry. Fashion is a form of slavery.



If all that isnt enough they are now trying it on with men! Oh the gaul and cheek of it! But surprise surprise! some weak willed shallow men have fallen for it. They are the flowers of the 'New Age man' campaign who pluck and wear make-up. are wearing girly styled and coloured clothes. they go for manicures [or in essex nail bars run by nail technicians..oh give me a break] they submit to girly waxes. which leads to my pet hate and rant! ...to all you girly men out there who fall for this crap...being hairy is manly! Its natural and healthy..the women who are brainwashing your subconscious into waxing your hair are bi-sexual probably anyway and want you to look girly..Wake Up!




I am a caring sensitive loving hairy alpha male who is proud! strip off my shirt and you see a real natural man not some shallow plucked waxed sweet smelling girly excuse for a man..oh I hate the feminisation of men and how the conspiracy that is the fashion industry manages to con some people. CALLEN








PS. Words of wisdom... " The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort but.....where he stands during times of challenge + controversy "

Wednesday, 3 February 2010

UK tv's 'Celebrity Big Brother' comes to an end

The recently finished 'Celebrity Big Brother' was in essence a let down as regard the quality of so called celebs. The programme makers had the opportunity to go out with a bang but instead they opted for shallow media personalities rather then popular celebs known by all. maybe they had a small budget for the last one? or lost interest and were busy scurrying around for new jobs? whatever it was..the finished product was pretty dire. maybe this signals the end of reality tv?


The 'Reality' genre was a big hit with the under 35s the past 10 yrs. I personally disliked the whole concept because it clashes with my pet hates of state/media control over the masses. ok it was an entertainment tv show with a humourous twist but there lies the danger ie you can introduce any theme hidden within a humourous text as its the easiest way for it to be widely accepted. Big Brother society is no laughing matter even on tv entertainment shows simply because it imploys imprisonment of ones life/thoughts and behaviour. Any major change in society is only accepted fully when you miss a generation. ie catch a virgin new generation so they grow up with the new changes and it becomes normal daily life to them and bingo! As the new young slowly take control of instituitions they automatically instugate those changes without much thought and people like myself who care about media and personal freedoms are simply marginalised and ignored [little like ex myspace users who have deserted to facebook] so...I think Big Brother tv entertainment shows like this are dangerous in inducing widespread acceptence of a totalitarian system. you may think that idea is laughable but study the facts! Having said all this I did enjoy aspects of the programme because I enjoy studying human 'types' and social/group behaviour. body language etc etc for this the programme was invalueable.



The 'Celebs' they chose this year were more anti-hero celebs rather then hero. you had people on there who were barely known. others who were there because they were 'ex's' of another celebrity [Dane-Alex-Irvana-Katia] heres my take on them......Vinny Jones. ex footballer and now hollywood movie star. I like the modern Vinny because hes mellowed into a likable rogue but..in the past he seemed to wallow in his hardman thug image. lets face it he looks like a common east end thug. he has little to be proud of in his footballing career as he brought the game into disrepute on more than one occasion with his childish and thug behaviour. he played 'aggressive' football and thought nothing of playing dirty. off the pitch he was worse and was certainly no role model for kids who look up to football heroes. But his 'thug' looks worked for him in film and thanks to 3rd rate film wannabee directer Guy Ritchie who cast him in his crap east end villain pic "Lock Stock and Two smoking Barrels" . It worked out well for Vinny and Hollywood beckoned as he looked right for hardman parts. it made him rich/famous in circles this ex hod carrier could only dream of in the past. I believe he did BB because now his hollywood star is fading and film work is drying up. he obviously thought he would win BB and it would revitalise his flagging career. seeing the disappointment on his face at the end was cruelly entertaining.


Dane ex boyband singer and Katie Price boyfriend was the only ordinary one in the house who played himself with little pretensions. because of that he was liked by everyone including me. Alex current boyfriend of Katie Price was a little sickly but again likable because he was honest about himself. all brawn and little brain but you felt drawn to his apparent naivety. one can forgive the horrible fake tan and bloated body and even his liking for cross dressing. he was genuine and respectful. I think he makes a good partner for Chav Princess Katie...well suited. Irvana 60 yrs old is a little sickly with her pigeon english and super rich lifestyle. ex wife of similer sickly Donald Trump. what on earth was she doing in the house? I found it uncomfortable watching her endure messy tasks designed to humiliate and one has to give credit to her for wearing a fake smile throughout. she was highly amusing after a few drinks with her zany dancing.


Stephenie Beacham 62 yrs old was another odd choice for the house. Shes a past c-list star of regional theatre and b-films..best known the past years for her classy bitch part in 'Dynasty' complete with padded shoulders and posh English accent. She never made a-list film star status although she acted with past greats. she came from a humble background born in Barnet north London she has adopted a posh upper class persona which suits her well. she freely admits she entered the house as a posh stuck up cow...good for her. she joined in with activities and was mother of the house. even younger housemates discreetly declared at 62 she still has a sexiness about her..I agree. Stephen Baldwin 43 yr old b-list american fim star was entertaining also with his zany mad preacher act. that was a big gamble as he risked being labelled a religious oddball but strangely housemates saw the funny side and warmed to him. Jonas [basshunter] came across as a naive mummys boy with his chilish sexual bad humour/farts and love fling with Katia. although after a while he became likable. Cisco was the token black guy who was genuinely likable also apart from his drunken attempts at attention seeking. I think many girls liked him for his cute plumped out bum.



Katia ex girlfriend of Rolling Stone Ronnie Wood aged 62 was another odd choice. she was there simply because she shared old Ronnies bed and split his marriage up. I guess she thought she could impress viewers by doing the same in the house by quickly jumping into Jonus's bed on screen? whatever it failed and she was villified there after and simply regarded as a 'player' and a mindless slut. she certainly lived up to the mindless part as she had very little of interest to say in conversations [maybe unfair editing?] Sov oh what a confused little girl she is. her mismatched street look was all wrong and her brattish tomboy persona just irritated viewers I think. she just acted like a confused thick spoiled little girl and as Stephenie declared she has no redeeming features at all. I have a feeling her whole appearence has lost her fans rather then gained them. Nikki.....cant think why she was there either? a proclaimed WAG and thick she had a vulnerabilty about her that caused most to just want to protect her. although 27 yrs old and a mother of a small child she acted more 13 than grown woman. she was just plain an ordinary nice girl which you couldnt help but liking etc etc.



Whatever you thought of tv's Celebrity Big Brother I guess it was entertaining in an odd sort of way. although the programme makers have said that audience numbers have fallen greatly over the last few years so it had to end I cant understand why they didnt finish ordinary BB and just do a once yearly Celebrity version? I guess you'll all have your own opinions on the last programme and it would be interesting to hear them? CALLEN










Words Of Wisdom......." Its your time now...just do it! Do you want to wake up one morning at 75 with regrets not doing what others warned you against? "